Quit Being a --------!!

To myself,

Why are you such a nuisance?

From myself.

Alright, I recently became unemployed because the holiday season is over. Now I have no source of income and I really should be looking for a job but I'm not. Instead I just sit here at home wanting to clean it up, get my brothers room more organize because right now, I'm calling it the junk room. Sorry dude. And honestly, if I am not going to be looking for work then at least I can make myself useful and help around the house. And again, I'm not because I guess I'm just being lazy. A terrible feature to have.

Or I can start drawing or making something. I want to be a designer and yet, I'm here on the couch being a who-knows-what. If I really want to become something (and this goes to anyone who's reading this) START WORKING ON IT! Really how hard is it? I am an artist, I know I'm good a making things come to life. I know I can draw and create something from my imagination. I know I can imagine anything in the world (this is sometimes an issue with myself). More than anything is that I am kind of mad at myself for being mainly a coward.